So week 6 is finally here, and I am halfway through the first trimester! It sounds funny saying that, actually, since not much seems to be happening at the moment. I mean, I have no mental idea of what the tadpole is looking like at the moment, I am not having the dreaded early pregnancy symptoms and I definitely have no bump to show off.
I still panic from time to time, thinking that everything is going to go wrong and I will lose the baby… But as Jon said, why worry about something that may not happen, and even if it happens there’s nothing that I could have done any differently? So I calm myself down and try to think of pretty flowers, cute kittens and relaxing things.
My breasts are still feeling very sensitive and tender, and moving from one side to the other whilst sleeping can be very painful. I am hoping that this is still a side effect of the crinone gel (I hate the bloody stuff – the injections were easy compared to this… and I still have three more weeks to go through!) and that once I finish with the gel my breasts will go back to normality (I know I am asking for too much… My breast will NEVER be the same!!!)
The first scan is next Monday at the Hampshire Clinic with Gillian, and both Jon and I are so looking forward to it. Can’t wait to see what’s going on down there and also, we will finally learn whether we have one bean or two. I know Jon wants two, and in an ideal world so would I, but for the reasons I gave the other day, I am hoping there’s just the one healthy tadpole.
Next week, some more!
